Sleeping problems

So sometimes my sleeping pills don't work. Last night I was so tired, so I finally fell asleep at 1. Woke up a few times during the night. Then at 4:30 I woke up...tried my hardest to fall back asleep...after fighting for a half hour, I just decided to give up and get ready to come into work. I don't work until 9am. So I came into work 3 1/2 hours early today.
I'm really tired of this though. Last week I woke up twice at 5. I'm really hoping today at work goes by fast, because I'm guessing I'm going to get tired later.
Anyone else have insomnia???? I blame my parents. My mom growing up would only work grave yards, and my dad is a morning person, however, he does take ambien as well, to fall asleep.
I worked grave yards on and off for 3 years, then I decided to try and make my sleeping patterns normal. It really bugs me when people just tell me that I can change my sleeping patterns, just automatically. These are people who obviously don't have sleeping problems. I literally can NOT sleep sometimes. Nothing I can do about it, obviously. If there was, I would have done it already. Do people actually think I like being this way??? Sorry, just venting a little tired frustration out there onto cyber space.

My stupid idea

So I decided that sense I'm leaving for Florida I would work on my tan. So I went with Paige (who is addicted to tanning and goes all the time) and then I was stupid enough to do the same time as her, I figured..15 min isn't that long. Well I got out and she's like.."how long did you go for?" so I told her, and she then called me an idiot and stupid and what not. I was like, I'll be fine. Well Sunday (the day after) I was burnt!! I was at least smart enough to but a towel on my back, so my back and butt didn't get sunburned (thank goodness!) but I was bed ridden all day Sunday. Paige was nice enough to help me with things, like getting me water and what not. She just spent the day in bed with me. It was so bad I couldn't wear clothes. I had to but aloe on me (It's mainly my stomach) and wrap myself in my sheet and just lay there with out moving. I woke up today and I can actually bend over and sit down, and move. So I think I'll be ok by Wednesday. But I have definitely learned my lesson. Tanning I think, is just not for me. But live and learn right? So all Paige and I did yesterday was watch The Hills. I have all three seasons on dvd, cuz I'm that cool. lol. I don't know why we like reality tv so much. But in my defense The Hills is the only reality tv show I have on dvd. I'm so excited to be going to Florida. I'll miss Paige of course. But I need the break from work, and from reality. I think it will be a really good thing for me. Well I feel I'm just rambling now.

Too much energy

So I went and got my medication refilled today. For you people who don't know, I'm on Ambien for my insomnia and Cylexa for my depression/anxiety. So I went in today, and I love my doctor. I told her that I thought I had symptoms for ADD. I've thought for a long time that I had had it. And I took a test, and wow, I had it! Lol. Go figure. So she prescribed me Adderall. Can I just say that this drug is AMAZING! I have never been this focused and had so much energy. It's like whatever I had been searching for, for myself has been found. I am feeling great! That's mainly why I'm writing a blog about it, because I'm still at work, all my stuff is done, and I have nothing to do, and I HAVE to be doing something. I could go run around the block right now, and be so happy doing it. The only downside is, it comes with 30 pills, (which is normal) but for one bottle is $90. Yes I said it...$90!!!! So with that and the rest of my medication I spent $115 today on pills. That is ridiculous. I honestly think that's a joke. If it helps me, then yes I'm going to take it, but why does it have to be so much money. I think the cost of medication has to be lowered. The Adderall isn't generic. Next time I get it filled I'm going to see if they have the generic brand, because $90 for just that one refill is a little expensive for just little ol' me. If any of you have any ideas on how I could save money that would be great! If not that's ok...It's good to vent. And get out some of this energy I have! I am actually excited to go home and clean the house and do my laundry for when Paige's mom comes to stay over Friday night (tomorrow) I hate cleaning. So that tells me that this magic little pill full of hopes and dreams is doing it's magic. And for that I'm grateful.

Outings with friends

So lately I have had nights with friends. There have been a lot of birthday parties. I love birthday parties, because I have an excuse to get hyper and wild! (sober wild).

Brees Wedding

Ok, so I have not blogged in a while, and I have a lot to catch people up on.

My best friend Bree (yes the same name) got married on June 27. She looked beautiful! And I was lucky enough to be in the wedding. I went up there (Ogden, i know right) the night before and was with her to calm her down (little bit of a meltdown, it happens) and get ready with her. I met her at the salt lake temple. I waited with her family until she got out, and when she did, she just looked absolutely amazing. I was lucky enough to hang out with her sister Hanah and Hanah's best friend Lyndsay. Bree's lunch in was amazing, and I cried during her video (I'm a sap) and I was in it, of course I had to cry, everyone cries at weddings. Her reception was outside. And it was freaking hot!! But at the end it was an amazing day. And I'm really happy to be a part of it.