UPDATED FRIENDS

So I have updated pics from the last couple of weeks. I usually spend all my time at work. But my best friend Caitlin came into town from Colorado a few weekends ago, and my best friend Trever just left for his mission today. So sad, but so exciting! The pic below is me and him from his farewell....




Me and Trever


Caitling and I, waiting for our table for dinner
Me, Jared and Caitlin...still waiting for our table
Us girls at lunch....me, Cate, Sarah and Heather....good ol' Bluehost crew



I've been slacking on my updates, but I hope I'll be able to spend more time with my friends after this month of work.

Dads Wedding

My dad got married on April 10. Him and Kayla had been dating for 5 years, so it was a wonderful day! Here are some pics from the big day!

The bride and groom

Me and my grandpa Deleeuw
The cake

Me and my cousins Paige and Brooklyn

Me and my great grandma

All the girl cousins and grandmas on the Russell side

First kiss


Gettin hitched
Kayla and I

Me and my daddy


The beautiful bride


Back of Kaylas hair

Updated pics of Hendrix

My computer cord has been broken. :( but I finally got my computer charged and finally able to post new pics!

Going for a car ride Sleeping while I read

Gave him a fohawk. He was NOT happy. Made me laugh

After a bath. LoL

Sleeping with his toy bear.....still IN his mouth hahaha

bliss :)

Hendrix and I taking a field trip to Utah County to visit great grandma last Thursday. He was just helping. :) It was a stop light.

Hes a little tuckered out. It was a very long field trip

My dog is the coolest dog ever! I can't believe Its only been 10 days!!! I feel like I have known this dog forever. :) He's my happiness. My everything. I love telling him my darkest secrets. He doesn't judge me. He just loves me. :) I think everyone should have a dog in their lives.

New Addition!!!!!!!!!

So some of you may not know, but I have adopted a dog. :) I got him from the humane society on Saturday. He was rescued from a puppy mill. :( He is the most loving precious thing ever. He is a 2year old Shih Tzu. I'm very happy to have found him. It will be a big responsibility, but I know I can do it. I have a lot of love to give, and it feels so good to not be all alone in my apt. I have named him Hendrix (I love Jimmy Hendrix) Finnegan Russell :) I call him Rix for short though.

Driving home :)

He is so precious!

Hes asleep while I get ready for work. He is laying on his stuffed frog. I love watching him drag round his toys. :) He's grown attached to a little care bear I have. It makes me laugh watching try and carry it around :)

Empty

Nobody understands this emptiness I feel,
Hopeless, how long will I feel this way?
Mindless, What? I'm sorry what did you say
Anxious, I sinned, what will happen to me today?
Worthless, what do I enjoy, why am I here, I forget.
Overwhelmed, how long can I live like this?
Up and down, I feel sad, I feel angry, I feel regret
Questions so many questions, why do I even exist
Antisocial, I love you, but please leave me alone.
Desperation, I've tried everything, theres nothing I can do
Too late, I am getting old, I am already grown
Distrust, you will let me down, you only care about you
Did they ever really love me, or did I just push them away?
They said they did, was it true?
I know this isn't right but I can't control this,
I know this isn't healthy, but what can I do?
I feel so empty sometimes, no emotion, no sadness, no anger, no happiness.
Just hollow, nothing inside, void of any feeling.
Empty.

Damaged

Desperately wanting the nightmare to end.
Unable to heal,
Unable to mend.
Repressed pain of the past,
Comes to haunt me at last.
My sanity sinking,
And I'm tied to the mast.
Never asking for this,
I was given no choice.
Abused and disposed of,
And left with no voice.
Stripped of trust,
Deprived of self worth.
Locked away in my own,
Private hell on earth.
I need to get out,
I have to break free.
But it all seems so hopeless,
Because I can't find the key.